When I write, personally, it's usually because there is something in my head that I can practically see and hear happening that I can't stop thinking about until I write it all down... (or it's part of the ongoing multifannish soap opera that is my RPG, where the little voices in my head and the little voices in some other people's heads get together and play).
If I write it down and it seems OOC once it's all written down I don't post it; if it seems problematic in some way and I don't like the feel of it and can't change it so that I do like it, once I'm able to read it consciously, I don't post it. If it's for the RPG and it will fuck things up I don't post it. But a lot of the time there either isn't a point (my most infamous story in the HP fandom was literally a dream I had--it actually did have a point but it took me ages to figure out what) or I don't know what it is until at least the first draft is done.
If this seems weird to you I'm sorry. I have two betas, one of whose process is exactly like mine; the other one tears her hair out sometimes. I have one friend who has identified recurring themes in my stuff. Her worth is above rubies. I love my editors madly. Because it's probably in there, but fuck if I know where it comes from.
That said, I own every word of what I post. If it's fucked up, it's fucked up (I'm fucked up after all), and I try to make it better--unless the criticism is "this story is immoral because of X thing (that I warned about)" to which my response is generally "okay so don't read it".
Re: part 2
If I write it down and it seems OOC once it's all written down I don't post it; if it seems problematic in some way and I don't like the feel of it and can't change it so that I do like it, once I'm able to read it consciously, I don't post it. If it's for the RPG and it will fuck things up I don't post it. But a lot of the time there either isn't a point (my most infamous story in the HP fandom was literally a dream I had--it actually did have a point but it took me ages to figure out what) or I don't know what it is until at least the first draft is done.
If this seems weird to you I'm sorry. I have two betas, one of whose process is exactly like mine; the other one tears her hair out sometimes. I have one friend who has identified recurring themes in my stuff. Her worth is above rubies. I love my editors madly. Because it's probably in there, but fuck if I know where it comes from.
That said, I own every word of what I post. If it's fucked up, it's fucked up (I'm fucked up after all), and I try to make it better--unless the criticism is "this story is immoral because of X thing (that I warned about)" to which my response is generally "okay so don't read it".